Sadness&AN CAFE

Today might be one of the most sad entries of my blog.
i dont know where is should start... i mean, i don't even know how explain how i feel.

Starting on this
AN CAFE Venezuela ST has been working hard to get the chance to see An Cafe here for the 1st time in this world tour. The company that produce concerts here gave us hope and we had hope untill the last time but we've lose it. since today someone from another ST told me that the AC staff told them that they can't add more dates because they're full. Sincerely i broke my heart because it's obvious that if there's not chance for them there's either for us. even tho by venezuela side the ones who are working is that is the own company and not us i don't know if they can do anything or something. i doubt it, the tour is gonna start very soon and they havent say anything. I feel very nyappy for every cafekko from europe and south america who will go to the lives, but understand me for a moment, i've been a cafekko from 7 years now i've wait for it for years to get this, fake hopes and the hard work to stand the fact that they will be near me and i cant see them.
An Cafe is THE ONLY band i love with all my heart this way. they gave me hope, happiness, smiles, 6 wonderfull men that no matter what will always be there for me. 6 awesome men i wil love untill my last day in the world. Thanks to them i met such wonderful people, thanks to them i can see there's sunshine light even tho the darkness takes me. they have saved me, if i was born again and i had to choose i'd be An Cafe's music. they inspire me. i cant explain in words how much they mean to me.
and now that once again i cant see them i feel like there's nothing left for me. i know people might say something like "wait for the next tour" but put yourself in my shoes, how you'd feel about it? i've cried tons of times (including today). I want all cafekkos who will go to feel very happy and for the ones that it's their 1st An Cafe live, i hope them to really valorate it because it's just so wonderfull and awesome.
I dont wanna to feel that knife of my heart when the tour starts because i know i will hurt me too much, so maybe i'll disappear from when the tour starts untill it ends or maybe more time.
anyway i know anyone will miss me.
my heart can't stand it. no one knows how many times i've wish to be in one of their lives, i've wish to buy their merch to treasure it forever because it'll remember me that one of my dreams came true.
When i got my 1st An Cafe original CD i cried and i was saying "Thank God" a lot. it was a true gift that means the world to me.
If you're a Cafekko, and you will go to one or two of their lives... Please treasure it, valorate it, it's just a wonderful chance that God gave to you, it's a dream coming true and please, have the best time there.


Another of the reasons of why i'm depressed is because personal problems. something that got me very bad and that i'm cant say here. something that breaks my heart so bad. Nathalie knows what i'm talking about.
anyway i'm going off.

Amazing Blue ☆ Mc Donalds ☆ Friends Day

I'm so nyappy o(≧∀≦)o my Amazing Blue finally arrived ! ! ! I spent the whole week waiting for this it arrived on wednesday but i wasnt at home so at the next day my mom went to the mail office to get it o(≧∀≦)o I got Teruki's card ヾ(๑＾▽＾๑)ﾉ 

 Teruki and Me☆ w w w 

I feel so nyappy now that it arrived ヾ(๑＾▽＾๑)ﾉ 

Aslo couple days ago i went to Mc Donalds with my best friend

 It was a silly moment w w w (๑╹ω╹๑ ) 

Too much food (^-^;) but Lee and Urania were eating too w w

After go to mc donalds we were to steph's house to watch some tv, talk and play with our little hamster(๑´∀｀)σ i took a couple pics with our little Sindercalx   

cute (^_^) right?

And yesterday i went to the chinese mall with steph, angie and uraniaヾ(oﾟ◡ﾟo)ﾉﾞ it was so fun ! ! ! we ate chinese food and started to walk into the mall☆ it's a little mall but they have such cute stuff and clothes. We all went crazy with all cuteness w w w

 Me☆Angie☆Steph

That store is called Fashion Bear as you can see (^_^) they have such nice shoes, shirts, pants and more☆ i really like it (๑´∀｀๑) 

It's Urania and Me at another store. Keroppi and Doraemon w w 

then after leaving chinese mall we went to Camoruco mall to get a new hamster but they didn't have any (;__;) so we went to MultiCentro but they didnt have hamsters either (´･д･`) our last hope was Exito mall and they had hamster (^o^) there was a lot of them and they all were so cute we didnt know wich one choose. but at the end we choosed this one

 we dont have name for him yetヽ(o￫з￩)ﾉ but i call him "Mr Cake" w w 

isnt he cute?ヾ(o´ヮ｀)ﾉ 

 It's Urania and me when we were in our way to Exito Mall by taxi

I got these Hello Kitty glasses at Chinese mall 

i think the glasses are so cuteヾ(◍'౪`◍)ﾉﾞ 

Now i'm off to finish japanese homework and study. i have test next week and i'm bit nervous aslo on monday i gotta go back to university (- o -) no more vacations (; Д ;)

Summer Dive and Tears

This entry will be very short.
there's just a week left to Summer Dive and i'm incredible sad about it (T__T)
i've spent all the past 2 weeks crying over it. It just feel so sad that i can't go
i cant join the happiness with all Cafekkos and An Cafe in their first concert after the hiatus
aslo i'm not from europa so i cant go the concerts there and i'm not sure yet if they will come to Venezuela (;__;) i dont know how to deal with it. it just hurt me so much

Amazing Blue ☆ Job ☆ Sad

I feel very excited i just listen to An Cafe new mini album song preview and it was awesome ヾ(๑＾∇＾๑)ノ "Bo K no Mental Clinic" will definitely be my favorite (*___*) i'm just so excited i can't wait to get the mini album. You can listen to the previews here  → Click here to listen ☆

I love the cover for limited edition ♥ 

I will start to work soon ヾ(o´ヮ｀)ﾉ  i kinda will be my own boss. i'll start my own bussines with my friend mineko (^__^) we're very excited. it's to save extra money for our travel to Japan ☆

Now to be honest i've been very sad lately (;__;) it's hard to explain here but i'll try.
It's about the person i'm in love with. i really can't understand him sometimes... one day we talk good, he misses me and everything fine and at the other he doesnt talk to me and acts weird and write status like he miss someone or something but i think it's not to me (｡•ˇ‸ˇ•｡) one of his status was "In the night the only thing i'm thinking about is in your eyes and how much i miss you" it made me cry because i felt i wasnt for me. (Yes we have been together before) but i dont know i'm not sure and it breaks me inside i don't know what to and i'm afraid to ask. we used to talk everyday now we dont even say "hello" (;___;)